Showing posts with label sanctuary. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sanctuary. Show all posts

Tuesday, 14 August 2018

Assumption Eve Medicine


 
 
Assumption Eve Medicine
 
For two months turning
the old women,
they who have the knowing,
have watched their charges carefully.
Picked at the height of their power
on the short night, after the long day;
the feast of fire,
that vigils the Baptist’s coming,
when lads and ladies leap
like hares over flames
and look with longing for love,
as children sing the old songs
filled with mystic meaning;
that night they were gathered
as grace and gift
beneath the light of sister Moon,
the Lady’s lamp and plucked
from garden and from forest glade,
by woman’s hands alone.
Now, they, the herbs for healing,
hang in blessed bunches
over the hearth of home,
or kept in kitchens
above the range,
or bound in byres
where the warming breath
of the queen kine keeps them
charmed and waiting
to release their medicine,
the healing pulse
of sister Mother Earth
and Brother Sun’s distilled light
mixed, and married, and greened,
in root, and shoot,
and leaf, and flower.
So they, the healing herbs,
have rested until tonight
when as dusk comes on
and begins to breathe her
autumnal quickening,
these wise ones take them down
and bring them now
to the old places of prayer
to the abbeys and chapels,
to the candled shrines
of the sainted ones,
who themselves bore
the fruit of blessing
and were heaven’s healing,
the salve of souls,
upon the earth.
There they find
the Lady’s chapel,
and lay their leafy burdens
beneath the linen cloths
upon the Altar, there to await
Assumption’s dawn,
and as the Mass bells ring
to have the holy words
said over them that render
them thrice blessed again,
and ready to release their
gentle healing gifts,
blessed once in very being
from first beginning’s breathing,
blessed twice in the burning
touch of Love’s own resurrection light
when all was made anew,
blessed thrice by the Lady’s prayers,
she who is the stock from which
all healing blooms,
and in her gathering home raised all
that grows green upon this good earth
to become heaven’s healing help again;
Eden’s elixir restored in her
and birthed anew as grace,
just as these sainted herbs
ground upon the mortar’s stone
will give their essence up,
and become the holy way
by which their medicine
blesses bodies and anoints
our souls to ready us
in our own time,
for Heaven’s
homing.

Vigil of the Assumption 14th August 2018.

In many places it was the ancient custom for women to gather herbs around the feast of St. John the Baptist (Midsummer) and then bring them to the Churches for blessing on the feast of the Assumption before they were made into medicine for the Winter ahead. The herbs were placed beneath the Altar Cloths and around the Sanctuary before the dawn Mass there to be offered to the Lord, through Mary’s hands, she who is the “first fruits” of His saving love, so as to receive her special prayers of healing and be blessed in their medicinal use in the year ahead.
The Ritual of the Church still provides for such blessings should they be requested.
 
(Pics in this post found as random uncredited images on the web)
 
 


Thursday, 12 April 2018

St. Francis of the Elements: A Meditation

St. Francis of the Elements: 

A Meditation.




Brother Air:


Francis,
you were a feather born upon the breath of God; dancing with the unseen and manifesting the invisible in your skyborn steps, inviting all to see again the Divine dance into which they are blessed born...
Francis,
you were an Autumnal leaf gilded by grace's sunshine and shower; now unafraid to let go of anything that would keep you from the freedom of flight and happy to journey to the dissolution of all in offering...
Francis,
you were a snowflake; unique and Heaven sent, you kissed the earth lightly and woke us to her own beauty and wisdom, long lost in our lies...
Francis,
you were a lightening strike; shattering a clear sky and bringing the Divine storm that renews and creates, bringing beginning and drawing a new Spring from stuffy stalled hearts...




Brother Fire:


Francis,
you were a spark; struck by Grace from the Flint of heart's hardness, yearning for the dry straw of sin to be kindled in kindness consuming...
Francis,
you were a hearth on a Winter's night; leeching the indifference from our cold ecclesial bones, welcoming all to sit in storied circle and be one in warmth...
Francis,
you were a forest fire; consuming all in the conflagration of your consecrated love, incandescent within the light of Grace flaming through your burning bones...




Sister Water:


Francis,
you were the dew of dawn; appearing to announce a new morning of magic when beasts and birds become brothers and sisters and our tongues are loosed at last in Eden's song...
Francis,
you were a sweet spring; burbling with joy that knows no end, offering to all a deep draught of the Divine, the only answer to soul's thirst...
Francis,
you were a mountain stream; singing your silver song upon a pilgrim path, refreshing worn feet and charming the divine dance from stony hearts...
Francis,
you were an ocean's drop; borne upon the tide of love you yielded to the pull of prayer and lost yourself in the sacred sea of His resurrection gaze and became yourself in unbecoming all you were not...




Sister Mother Earth:


Francis,
you were a grain of dust upon the road; herald and holy, you dwelt in truth's humility, barefoot upon the brown earth, fading at distance into the truth of her embrace...
Francis,
you were a stone; becoming stillness you yielded yourself and were chisel formed into a foundation, while still a friar free to rest upon the rock of faith...
Francis,
you were a healing herb; condensing in yourself the medicine of first divine in-breathing when all that is, is named as good, for reminding us of redemption's remedy you gave root and leaf and flower and fruit for all...
Francis,
you were bird and beast; all found their friend in you and revealed their inner teaching of praise at your prayer; wondering to hear in you the voice long lost from creature's canticle sung by all that is, as you drew even tears from those who by Adam's naming had felt their brother-sisterhood of being lost to them until your call...



Francis,
you are beyond all elemental being now, plunged sainted and seraphic into Love's fire of origin and union and ending, all in one eternal communion of praise, where God is all in all and all are one. Pouring out upon those who are brave enough to follow your bloody footprints upon the Gospeled path an ever flowing fountain of peace and joy and brother beckoning us ever onward, ever upward, from earth's embrace, to sing with wind and fire and water our way into the Divine Dance of Being!

Saturday, 31 March 2018

Homily for the Easter Vigil 2018






Homily for the Easter Vigil 2018

The Angel said, “You are looking for Jesus of Nazareth, who was crucified: He has risen, He is not here. See here is the place where they laid Him. But you must go and tell His disciples and Peter: He is going before you to Galilee; it is there you will see Him, just as He told you.” Mk. 16:8

We have arrived at the place of fulfilment.
We have arrived at the place where all our longing, all our desiring falls away.
We have arrived at the moment of Resurrection, not just of Christ, but through Him and with Him and in Him, a resurrection of all that is.

Long lost in self, long lost in despair, long lost in death we had felt the coldness of a life that seems to have no meaning, no essence, no hope…
we had felt the darkness of a wintered night without and even more so within…
we know what the long night of sin has done to us…
it has worn us down…
it has shamed us…
it has taken from us all that we hoped for…
as sin always does…
since the garden we have known its false promises and since the garden we have thought them real, only to stumble and fall again and again…
And yet for thousands of years we have hoped for deliverance, for freedom, for restoration…
We have been promised such in the proclamations of prophet and in the whispers of patriarchs, in the songs of the holy women and in the innocence of children we have seen another way, we have been recalled to righteousness, we have been invited again and again into covenant…
and we have heard that it is possible that the God who is Love never abandons His creation. Never abandons His people, never abandons you, never abandons me…

And He has promised…
he has declared that not only will He be Emmanuel, the God with Us, but He will be Jesus, the One who saves us from our sins. How? By facing down our darkness. He who is light will descend into the darkness of our sin. God from God, Light from Light, true God from True God; the everlasting Word of the Father will descend, will empty Himself and descend into the very bone of our bone and flesh of our flesh… this is how much He loves us…
He will become us and in becoming us He will face our darkness, consume our sin, heal our wounds…
He will be our sacrifice, the only sacrifice acceptable to the Father for in His humanity He will descend to heal us and in His divinity He will raise us up to our eternal home in the very heart of the communion of Love that we call God…

Yes He will descend and in descending touch the darkness, touch the despair, touch the sin, touch the misery of our selfishness and for just a moment, for just a seeming moment seem to be consumed. He will touch death, death on a cross. He will touch your death, all that is dead in you, all that is dead in me…
just for a moment…
they touch…
they embrace…
they kiss…
and from the darkened Golgotha sky the source of life and light breathes out his Spirit over the chaos we have caused…


And then…
and then He conquers!

Darkness is overcome by Light
Death is overcome by Life
Despair is overcome by Hope
Love… Love…Love
conquers all!
He is Risen!
Alleluia!
He is Risen!

This is the heart of existence, the heart of the story of creation, this is what it is all about and always was and will be about…
He descends and in that universal moment of Resurrection I am raised too, you are raised too, and crackling along the great faultline of history forwards and backwards into the world of the dead and the world of those yet to come all feel that great earthquake of power as death is conquered, the gates of hell are broken and the lamb reveals himself as the Lion of Judah
and He goes before us…
listen to the words of the Angel…
He goes before us…
We will see Him there just as He told us…

He goes before us…
the One who was foretold through the ages…
the One who emptied Himself of Divine Glory so as to become one with us…
goes before us…
The One who suffered and died and rose again goes before us…
He goes before me…
He goes before you…
Do you know what that means?
It is the great Easter secret…
from now on there is never a moment in your life or in my life, never a joy, a suffering, a place, or a time where He is not already there, waiting for you to arrive and be present to Him so that He may pour out love and light and power upon you… The resurrection is not just a moment in history it is happening now…
in this moment and in every moment we will ever face!
Our choice tonight and in each moment is to liberate His power in us, to allow Him to be the God He is who waits until we allow Him in… until we become present to Him…

Otherwise we miss it… we can be like the disciples who hear the word of hope and power and dismiss it… it can’t be we think! I had my plans and they failed… I had my hopes and they failed… I know who I am and I am a failure…
So I will dismiss the easter message tonight and descend back into my worry, my pain, my story of how things should be, could have been, would have been…
No not tonight! I beg you not tonight!
Leave the tomb of the past behind… walk out into the garden of the new morning of God’s Love.

He has died to show you how much you are loved. Your God has died for you!
He has risen to show you how much you are loved. Your God has risen for you!
He has gone ahead of you to prepare a place for you. Your God goes ahead of you!
No more fear of the future then!
No more regret for the past then!
As the Lamb He has cancelled your past
As the Lion He fights for your future…

So we on this holiest of nights begin again with the God of beginning
We say to Him again Lord that I may see! Lord that I may follow! Here I am Lord in all my mess, my pain, my glorious brokenness! Here I am for you! Let me begin again this day, this very moment. Not my will but yours…

What have we to fear?
We have it from the Angel’s mouth…

He has risen…
He is not here in the place of the tomb…
He is going before you…
It is there you will see Him…
Just as He told you…

And let us pray: Lord I will follow you into the easter light of the life you have prepared for me…

Tuesday, 27 March 2018

Hearing Confessions: Hearing Grace


Over the last three days I have had the privilege of hearing around 12 hours of Confessions... musing on the grace of this wonderful sacrament led me back to this reflection from last year...

Once again I am struck by the extraordinary nature of this Divine gift...
Old and young, they came....
Old ladies and men seeking more chat than Sacrament....
Young people needing counsel as well as Confession...
The long lost who at last have found their way home, only to discover that they had never actually left the house of Divine Love, nor could they...
The broken relationship...
The stressed out Mum or Dad...
The one making life decisions and unsure what is real and what is illusion...
The random walker in the woods who on passing the church receives a nudge from their Guardian Angel and thinks why not?

No one but God will ever know the dance of grace that takes place in and through the Sacrament of Reconciliation... those who come arrive for all kinds of reasons... and often we discover the real reasons together as hearts open, tears fall, and grace rushes into the gap between who we are at our lowest and who we may be at our best... And then the final extraordinary glimpse of the vision that Divine Love has for us when absolution is given, freedom received, heart is salved and wounds are healed and we realise that we never needed to carry these burdens at all... All that was asked of us was to let them drop one by one into the transforming furnace of Divine Love blazing eternally in His Sacred Heart... And this is a miracle beyond miracles that takes place in Confessionals and in sanctuaries every day, yes, but also in shops and on the street and in parks and at festivals and funerals and weddings and in pubs and on pavements and in prisons and beside hospital beds and in the strident voices of the young and in the whispered voice of the dying... when someone looks at you with that look and says, "Would you mind hearing my Confession?"

But if I could ask one thing of you... Please pray for us who are called to this ministry of Divine Encounter for we see and hear it all and carry within us not only knowledge of our own sins and darkness (which is tough enough for any person) but also the direct knowledge of the gaping wound at the heart of all humanity, and while, thank God, it is not our job to heal it, or judge it, it is our sacred duty to be the instrument through which He pours His healing and unconditional love into it...while we seek always that healing for ourselves too...
The best description of the Sacrament I ever heard was from an old friar who described it as "two sinners having a conversation in the presence of God, and remember where God is present everyone leaves healed."
Call it what you will: The Sacrament of Reconciliation, of Confession, of Penance, of Soul Beauty... maybe in these days He is calling you to such an encounter too... Lay down your burdens... and realise you never had to carry them at all.



Pic is of Pope Francis making his Confession in Rome

Tuesday, 19 December 2017

O Radix Jesse! A meditation on the third of the Great O Antiphons of Advent:





O Radix Jesse, O Root of Jesse!

We cry out to you O Root from which all springs,
first fecundity of the Divine!
Come and restore our fruitfulness so long shrivelled and sin wintered!
For we, obsessed only
with the flower that blooms
and is gone so quickly,
spill our tears upon the soiled surface
of the fading petal
and forget the virtue of the root!


O Root of Jesse!

Help us lest we forget that strong growth,
must come from a strong stock,
to know a flower that would
outlast the frost
must come from deep roots,
long buried,
and anchored in
the warm womb
of Mother Earth
resting down the long
ages in the divine dark!

O Root of Jesse!

Speak to us of Spring!
Of that new life you bring,
a quickening felt through all creation,
a gospeled spark,
begun in the deep pulse of a seed
now planted
in that gateless garden
so long prepared!


O Root of Jesse!

You are the point of origin
where all begins,
where from eternity time blooms;
where then comes forth from
Now;
until that sprouting moment
where all begins in you anew!
Save us for your harvest of hope!

O Root of Jesse!

Mixing your luminous seed
with the deep humus
of our muddied being
you bring forth new life!
Heal us
and raise us from our barren sleep
of sin and self
inviting us to bloom again
as first intended and
yet more so than even this
for now,
our roots entwined,
grafted to your Divine stock,
made at last again
one people, one plant, one garden
in which you will walk, delight and dwell.

O Root of Jesse!

We call to you in our evening song
as Adam did,
our gardener father who knew the names of all
and saw your face reflected in his own
until our bloom withered in his hand
plucked from its sustaining root
by selfish desire.

O Root of Jesse!

We sing you our Magnificat,
first sung by Eve our earth Mother,
long silenced since the sundering of her stock,
until she who is Eve and Jesse’s daughter too
became the place of planting
where you
divine root, and seed, and stock,
now born in time and lulled by her hymn
to sleep before your sorrows
renew in us your
love so radical that we are again
delivered into Eden, rooted in
peace,
God grafted into grace.

O Root of Jesse, standing as a sign among the peoples;
before you kings will shut their mouths,
to you the nations will make their prayer:
Come and deliver us, and delay no longer.

Tuesday, 31 October 2017

All Hallows Eve: a remembrance

For the night that's in it...

All Hallows' Eve

This was the evening
she swept out the hearth.
I helped,
sort of.
Once clean,
and perfect to her discerning eye,
(milky white, though the light behind them
was sharp and never dimmed),
she would set bread,
(brown soda always),
and salt
before the banked flames.
"For the visitors",
she would say,
whenever I asked,
as I did,
annually.
Her breath whistling
half heard prayers
she would go then
from room to room
straightening cushions,
flicking tables with tea-cloths,
to clear the last vestiges of dust from surfaces so well polished with age and use
they gleamed.
"The house should be clean when they call", she would say.
We would have tea then.
Waiting.
Sometimes she had cake or a ginger snap, (dunked to soften it for dentures.)
I had cake too.
Then she would sit in her stiff backed chair
in front of the fire.
Waiting.
I would sit beside her,
sometimes in the big green armchair
slowly sinking into the old feather filled cushions, so big my feet swung.
More often,
I perched on the stool
beside her chair
where I could watch the TV
with her.
But not this evening.
This was always different.
No RTE news.
No Crossroads.
No Coronation Street's plaintive trumpet.
Just sitting together
in the quiet.
Waiting.
Tonight there would be
just the fire,
and the bread,
and the salt
left out,
blessed and prayed over
and freely given
for the guests,
whenever they would come.
And then she would talk about them.
All of them.
Her mother and father, her aunts and uncles, and tales of Dublin so long ago
it seemed they should begin with
"Once upon a time!"
Her grandmother got special mention,
"They called her a sharp woman, wise, brought in for birth and death you know, she had the understanding", she would say,
and then say no more for a while.
Sometimes,
she would speak in a different voice,
reserved only for him,
of my grandfather Martin,
her husband,
gone an age ago to me,
but still so present to her heart;
and then her eye
looking across the flames
at faces I could not see
would bring to mind all those others too
who had already gone...
and she would go quiet.
"Where had they gone?"
I would ask.
"Home"
she would simply say.
But tonight,
they would visit.
Once,
just once,
it made me nervous to think of it.
She laughed then.
"Nervous of the dead?"
"Don't be silly."
"Aren't they family?"
"Aren't they friends?"
"Don't they pray for us!"
"Don't we pray for them?"
"You can fear the living," she would say,
a sharp smile playing about her wrinkled eyes, "but never the dead."
"A Christian never has to fear the dead."
"Sure don't we have the Blessed Virgin and all the saints around us too."
Then she would take my hand
and we would just sit.
Waiting.
She praying...
I wondering...
Feeling the wrinkled warmth
of her
loose skinned hand.
Safe.
Then she would say
it was time to go home.
So I would go then across the green.
Home to parties
and noise
and black bag wearing,
apple bobbing,
door knocking,
sparkler waving,
"Help the Halloween party!"
roaring fun.
Sometimes I would think of her.
Sitting in front of the fire.
Waiting.
But mostly I didn't.
Until the morning;
All Saints Day.
Off to Mass, a day off school too.
Then,
in the afternoon
I would drop over.
To find the telly on,
the chair turned now to face it once again,
The bread gone,
salt scattered to bless the house and garden.
"It's Richard, Gran!" I'd shout.
And I would hug her and tell her all about it;
the parties and the sweets, and the things we called wine-apples because we didn't know what a pomegranate was,
and the lady who always gave rotten Brazil nuts you couldn't crack,
(Christmas left-overs we were sure!),
and she would laugh and make the tea,
and we would sit again
side by side
and wait for "The Two Ronnies"
and then
I would remember and ask,
(During the ads of course)
"Did they come."
"Oh yes," she would say,
"They always come."
"What do you do when they come?"
"What does anyone do when visitors come?"
She replied, with a slow smile.
"You chat?" I'd say.
"Exactly", she glittered.
"Now be a good boy and turn up the telly."
And I was,
so I would.
A quarter of a century
has passed
since she went
home.
But still,
this night
always,
I welcome the visitors too.
Friars and family both now.
Sitting before the candle flame
breathing the blessed breath
of memory
and prayer.
Waiting.
Just as she
my first elder
taught me.
Waiting.
Until they arrive
once more,
and
she now
a visitor
too.


Saturday, 15 April 2017

Homily for the Easter Vigil 2017



Homily for the Easter Vigil: 


We have kept vigil… we  have waited with hope… we vigil with all of Christianity…with all of the cosmos who since that first Good Friday have entered into the Divine Space where these sacred events always exist, at once both human and divine, in time and in eternity.

We have walked their ancient paths, worn by countless generations of faith-filled ancestors all over the world, and we have arrived at that upper room where the Disciples and Apostles gather to wait… For what they do not know… they are simply called to wait… sustained by a silent Mother in their midst who believes as only a mother can believe that the story of her broken boy is not yet over…cannot yet be over… must not yet be over… She a single, silent point of illumined faith in a world of darkness and pain… a star shining in the night dark in despair…

Let us go to that place now and be with them a while, entering in spirit that room of darkened windows and locked doors… where, since yesterday afternoon, they have descended into that quiet that enters the human heart when, hoping against hope, we wait…
We wait…
We wait… when waiting itself seems a vain act, a hopeless effort of a heart and mind too broken to take in the awful reality of what has just happened…

The world would call it denial… it would see in it a people who are broken by their own betrayal of the One they claimed they loved and who now cannot accept the consequences of that betrayal…and so they leave us alone… their work is done… our work is done…we betrayed Him… they crucified Him… no matter who did what… who held the nails… who held the scourge… who placed the crown of thorns upon His head… He is dead… That is all… And so they leave them at the tomb… leave them to crawl back to the upper room of vigiling… of waiting… of silence…

We look around the room… and remember…Can it really be only a few days since He was here, speaking, teaching, loving? We see the bowl of water, the towel, we see the empty plate and cup, we remember His call to love and we remember his prediction of betrayal and how, just for a moment, almost none of them, none of us, could meet His eyes…

We try and stop remembering…instead we wait with them… not really sure of what we are waiting for… there is simply a silent insistence to be here… to gather… to wait… and sometimes… when we think no-one is watching or listening to weep… to weep for what we saw… those of us who stayed and walked behind Him in the crowd; to weep for what we didn’t see, those of us who fled to rooms and hills and hidden places where, though we did not see it all we felt it all… heard it all…

Sometimes it is harder to feel and to hear than it is to see… especially when the mocking voice arises from the silence of our hearts and sneeringly delivers us to the edge of despair as we look back and watch our brave words crumble into cowardice…

And so we wait… we wait as people have always waited at sickbeds and deathbeds, at moments of birth and moments of breaking, at moments of making and unmaking, we wait with the Earth our mother, and the sun and the stars our elder sisters and brothers; those powers who stopped in their tracks and hid their faces and broke open in horror at what their human brothers and sisters had done… at what we had done…
We wait as armies await the dawn hoping for the cry of a new day and a new hope… and slowly, hesitatingly, we remember…

Did He not say that this would happen? Did He not speak to us of a handing over… of a death that had to be faced… of an hour that had to come… Did He not berate us for not understanding… for not believing… Did He not in this very room…only a few hours ago tell us, as He broke the bread and blessed the Cup, that He would be taken from us but that He would return… and that then He would always be with us…

We hear His words in our hearts…
At first… they are weak sounding… against the so new and so near sight of blood, and nails, and spear, and… blood… so much blood, poured out upon the earth They are weak against the memory of His groans and words in the midst of agony upon the Cross…

But the words sound themselves in our hearts and with each one we shudder at the remembrance…
“Father forgive them they know not what they do”…
“Today you will be with me in paradise”…
“Mother behold your son”…
“Son behold your mother”…
“My God, My God Why have you forsaken me”…
“I thirst”…  
“Father…Into your hands I commend my spirit”…


And as they sound we remember that last groan… that almost silent word… more of a breath… a gasp, fighting its way to the surface to be heard…
“Kaaaah laaahhh”… “It is accomplished!”…
and somewhere deep in our memory awakens the knowing that this is the word the High Priest utters in the temple as the last Passover Lamb is slaughtered… Kahlah… it is accomplished…
and we are stilled…
and we think…
the lamb…
the blood of the Passover Lamb…
the blood daubed on door post and lintel that says in this place death has no power…

And we remember a man… John…worn thin and brown by prayer and desert sun both, and his arm, wiry and long, as it pointed across the river and his voice crying aloud, “Behold the Lamb!”… and we, they, all of us through all time begin to hope…begin to yearn… begin to pray… begin to think… maybe…just maybe…

For yes, He was truly the long-awaited Lamb and the true High Priest and even the Altar of Sacrifice itself and in that whispered moan of Kahlah as He yielded up His spirit He accomplished all that He had been sent to do, all that He had freely chosen…

In emptying Himself of Glory He descended into the darkness of a sin conquered world and became its liberator, its conqueror, its saviour, its light. And we who know that darkness, who know its pull and hear its siren call daily, know also that we are made for that light, long for that light, long for that love, long in the deepest places of our hearts for new beginning and the grace of an inward dawn that never yields to the night of self or death or sin again…
And this is what we vigil for… this is how we can endure the memory of the scourge, the crown, the nails, the cross, the spear… because we know how the story ended! Not in the dark despair of a Friday night, at the sealed dry rock of a tomb, but in the dawn light of a Spring garden on a Sunday morning where resurrection was announced by birds greeting the new day in song…

For in that divine breathing forth, that cry of Kahlah…
Life itself went forth to meet death,
Light itself went forth to meet darkness,
Love itself went forth to meet hate, and…
death was made the door of life,
darkness was dispelled and illumined, and
hate was defeated and cast down by Love
and breath born creation was in-spired again, created anew as in the Saviour’s expiration it received the breath of God…the Divine kiss of life saving a sin drowned cosmos and so could begin to breathe anew…

And this happened…this happened… and it is happening now… here in this place… not again, but always!
For in the eternal now of God this waiting in the darkness of sorrow, always becomes, when transcended with faith, a vigil of light and hope, always becomes a resurrection moment as we touch the power of the Risen One and His grace…

And this is how by Fire, and Story, and Water, and Bread, and Wine we pass through thousands of years of waiting and longing in a single night, and with hearts made new and candles kindled, we become who we really are: the anointed sons and daughters of God who know that the despair of the upper room on that Saturday will surely, surely, yield to Easter joy and light.

This is why we are able to not just tell the story but to become the story for a world that longs to hear it, needs to hear it, was made to hear it… and when we become that story in the Risen One, when we allow Him to once more be the Word made Flesh in us then, only then, does the marvel of Easter take place:

Christ will rise in your heart, in my heart.
Christ will work in us and through us.
Christ will pour out His blood upon us and breathe His Spirit into us and illumine us with His light and with His love…
And, when the moment comes for us to enter into His Kingdom, we will hear Him say, as He looks upon us all, “Kahlah!” “It is accomplished!”, and we will know ourselves to truly be His New Creation, His Victory Song, His Easter People who sing His Alleluia Cry…
This is why we vigil and this will be why we vigil to the end of time…

Yes…we have touched darkness…and will touch it again… earthly and fallible and fallen as we are…
We have seen how quickly our “Hosannas!” turn to cries of “Crucify!” and we know our sin, but we know our Saviour too and know that no darkness, however powerful it seems will stand against His Resurrection light!
No need for shame, or guilt, or fear, this Holiest of Nights, for they are the fruits of Adam’s turning away…now the new Adam appears, and with Him who is both God and Man we are returned not merely to Eden, but to Heaven itself, there to gaze upon the face of God forever and to hear our names called as children of the Most High…

Yesterday we kissed the Cross,
This evening we have vigilled from darkness to light
Tomorrow and forever…we are an Easter people for we know that above all, beyond all, behind all:
Christ has died,
Christ is risen,
Christ will come again!

May the Lord bless you and yours this Easter Night: The Father, The Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen!

Wednesday, 12 April 2017

Spy Wednesday: a meditation

Spy Wednesday:

We feel it once again
approach,
the annual reminder,
the telling of the
true tale;
of the betrayal
of love,
of light,
of God
that exists
not just then
but
always;
an option in each
moment.
Beguiled by shadows
of desire,
always appearing
bigger and better
than the that whose
shape
they,
in their smoke selves
flickeringly take
falsely;
we tell ourselves
the story
as old as eden
"It is for our good,
for their good,
for goodness sake,
for eventual good."
But we
know,
always,
deep down we
know,
as inch by inch,
step by step,
we turn our back on
Him,
on Love,
and allow
the callous clinking of
coin
to fall upon the
floor
of a once clean
sanctuary,
our fairy gold that
disappears
in morning light,
yet we,
knowing that good is
hard,
too often
take the eden easy
way,
and
descend the
steps of
desire
until despair
beckons...
Hold!
He is looking at
you,
always,
in this moment,
meet His eyes,
who saw you
first in
eternal
gaze of Love
from everlasting,
and hear Him call
your true
name!
Give Him
your
judas shrunken self,
lost in egoic agony,
and let
His betrayed and bought
blood
purchase for you
instead
Peter's
true tears,
crystalising
into repentant
rock
beneath
Easter's
thrice told
benediction.

Monday, 30 January 2017

What was he like? Brother Leo remembers Brother Francis







What was he like? Brother Leo remembers Brother Francis.

“What was he like?”
I asked,
exhausted from my climb to pierce the
cold cliff top cloister of
this cowled brother’s retreat,
hoping to stir to remembrance his soul
stung by the Seraph’s fire so long ago,
yet burning still in eyes ancient but clear,
that gazed upon my lack of grace with mercy,
and smiled at me from a distance I cannot fathom
“What was he like?” he whispered to himself
holding my question as carefully as the jug
with which he poured me water, cave cold and clear
to quench a pilgrim’s thirst.

Then on that hill above Assisi
the old hermit friar spoke,
slowly at first, and stumbling,
as though his tongue, long lost in silence
of cave and forest, had now to stretch itself
and awaken language once spoken,
like one who comes home from a foreign shore
and finds the accents of his own confusing.
So we sat before his cave he and I,
friar and novice,
lost in legends and lore,
all the more beautiful for being
at the same time,
truth;
and needing to be told once more
to a world longing for his possibility to be made present
in edenic blessing
once again.

What was he like?
Like a Tree he was,
that on Summer days shines green
and in its topmost branches feels,
the waft of Heaven’s winds
and dances even at the stillest hour,
or that in Autumn clings not to leaf but
changes loss to gift by
casting clothes windwards and
delights in lightness,
its bare bones describing sky
and pointing arrowlike
always upwards.

What was he like?
Like a Stone he was,
smoothed by the sweet rain,
graced by countless hours of chiselling prayer
into a solidity of stillness.
A cornerstone, a keystone, a foundation stone
able to hold the weight of wisdom lightly,
yet bear up the broken and bridge the gap;
a stepping stone to wholeness and home
for those long lost.

What was he like?
Like the Night Sky he was,
open, and sheltering, and many
couloured in magnificence, but
starlit in simplicity.
Its beauty simply a gradation of light,
infinite in scope and eternal in origin.

What was he like?
Like Fire he was,
tracing his storied path from spark to ember,
even in stillness, a banked flame
and always energy of exultation breathing blessed,
a conflagration of communion,
buried just beneath the ashes of abstinence.

What was he like?
Like a Stag he was,
who knows where the sweet water flows,
and travels the deep dark valleys
and mountain crags to reach his slaking spirit stream.
Loud as a Bear he was,
and as quiet too,
spending his winters between
wakefulness and sleep,
lost in the cave of the heart,
barely breathing
but
murmuring mercy for all,
until Spirit spring stirs and his
honeyed roar was heard again
upon the hills.
Like a Wolf he was,
singing soul songs beneath sister Moon’s gaze
with clear eyes lost in Heaven’s love,
calling to himself his pack, those
who knew their song and soul sound
in his echoes of emptiness.
Badger brawny and
filled with faith’s wisdom he was,
and likened to old Broc,
he knew the ancient ways and
night walked, as they do,
secret silent paths,
long trodden, but needing
refinding always, in each
generation’s journey.
Like a Salmon leaping he was,
glittering like glass
light sparkling from sliver scales,
struck by sunlight, suspended
between sky and stream in a
moment of stillness
over ever rushing river.

What was he like?
A living song spark wrapped in the
nest of Mother earth,
enfolded in the dun dust brown of the Sparrow,
small and thin he was,
with a barefooted skipping gait
barely holding the joy that burst from his breast
his feathered soul never far from song.
Like a Wren in a thornbush he was,
cocking its eye wryly at the earth bound,
certain of its power of flight
and yet choosing our company.
Like a Robin he was,
who, tree hidden from view,
sings its piercing song of Heaven
drawing down remembrances of innocence past
into hearts sure they were
long past childhood’s delight in sheer being,
and there waking wonder once again.
Thin like a Thrush he was,
who seeks the highest branch
even in storm, and sway-sings with delight a tone made purer
for the assault of wind, and rain,
and thunder crackling all around it.
Like a Hawk he was,
staring with unblinking eye into Love’s light
and falling like a stone from heaven
to shock his sleeping prey awake.

And now?
What is he like now?
Like a Lark he is,
free and flying heaven high
whose sun-kissed song
seeks only an open soul and then,
beckons all skywards.
And I miss him, though
he sings his lark song in my heart too,
Aye, and in yours as well or you
wouldn’t have visited me here
now would you?
But I shall fly to him soon
and there we will sing together
once again our lark lauds for the One
who gathers all bird, and beast, and brother, in blessing.
And then we sat, old and young together
Cowled in brown both, though centuries between
and ghosts to each other,
until the sun set and the moon rose
waiting for the Nightingale to chant her compline call
and Assisi bells to ring their song of peace.